Friday, January 02, 2004
Happy New Year everyone.
As usual, my rhetoric about social concerns and my trying to bring myself to a higher plane of existance had turned to naught. There was much merry-making, a short bout of bad health which always follow my indulgences, and some attempts at reflecting and contemplating during the new year holidays.
The past six months has been one of the wildest I've had, and I had to ask myself some very hard questions. My existence, my beliefs, my career, my sexuality, my relationships. There's still much more to go, coz I think I had not plunged myself into the deep end, yet. And I think, I hope, next year will be one of much growing, learning and challenging. This year's shaking is like a tremor, perhaps next year will be the earthquake. Sweet.
I know I've creeped some of my friends out in big ways and small with my angst-ridden writings, but I call them my growing pains. I think I've grown so much more as a person, putting on more layer and complexity as I went along. At the same time, I feel so much more aware and alive and free, especially having been part of the very infamous Singaporean system for most of my life. I'm really thankful for each one of you who have helped me grown. Thank you.
There are plans to travel quite a bit this year. Backpacking and stuff. There are so many places I haven't been to, and suddenly there is this intense desire to explore this world I'm in (probably fuelled by the many episodes of Globe Trekker I've watched), and to just throw myself into the challenge. I want to open myself to new experiences and to meet new people, and hopefully understand myself a little more. So many things I want to try, so many things I want to do. But one hope, and only one, that I'll be a better human. More human, more real.
Exhilarating. I've never felt so strongly about a new year before. May your journey this year bring you to beautiful unknown places. Peace. God bless ya.
As usual, my rhetoric about social concerns and my trying to bring myself to a higher plane of existance had turned to naught. There was much merry-making, a short bout of bad health which always follow my indulgences, and some attempts at reflecting and contemplating during the new year holidays.
The past six months has been one of the wildest I've had, and I had to ask myself some very hard questions. My existence, my beliefs, my career, my sexuality, my relationships. There's still much more to go, coz I think I had not plunged myself into the deep end, yet. And I think, I hope, next year will be one of much growing, learning and challenging. This year's shaking is like a tremor, perhaps next year will be the earthquake. Sweet.
I know I've creeped some of my friends out in big ways and small with my angst-ridden writings, but I call them my growing pains. I think I've grown so much more as a person, putting on more layer and complexity as I went along. At the same time, I feel so much more aware and alive and free, especially having been part of the very infamous Singaporean system for most of my life. I'm really thankful for each one of you who have helped me grown. Thank you.
There are plans to travel quite a bit this year. Backpacking and stuff. There are so many places I haven't been to, and suddenly there is this intense desire to explore this world I'm in (probably fuelled by the many episodes of Globe Trekker I've watched), and to just throw myself into the challenge. I want to open myself to new experiences and to meet new people, and hopefully understand myself a little more. So many things I want to try, so many things I want to do. But one hope, and only one, that I'll be a better human. More human, more real.
Exhilarating. I've never felt so strongly about a new year before. May your journey this year bring you to beautiful unknown places. Peace. God bless ya.
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