Life of endless possibilities

Today marks a new phase of my working life. I've finally left a three-year job to go 'do my thing', hoping to find something which satisfies my heart as well as my wallet.

The day started with me being jolted out of my sleep, and instantoats turned into instantgrouch.
Terribly unexciting way to start my journey into Life and Freedom. But as the morning goes by, I start to realise how liberated I feel because now, I don't have follow other people's time. The day ahead belongs solely to me, and I work for myself, not other people.

One thing I miss though is being able to ride together with mom to work. I think I've grown to enjoy the conversations we have in the car, just those 20 minutes everyday. Oh how I hate having her leave the house for work alone. Hmmm, maybe I should offer to send her to work...

I am more than an equation. More than a reflex. More than an existance. And I now fight against that within me which says I am just those things, against feelings that want to act as though I am subject to them.

Oh, and I'm loving every moment of this! For in a way, this struggle has made me feel more alive than ever. I have no answers, but this is by far better than having all the model answers which aren't mine, and don't fit me.

Perhaps one day, I will learn to accept, and see that nothing really matters. But that is another lesson, for another day.

Today, I fight.